I don’t remember exactly when I first started thinking about why I was here. I was probably three or four years old. Even at that age, I had a strange feeling that there was something I was supposed to do in this life. Of course, I couldn’t explain what that meant. I was just a child, and I had no idea what my future would look like. But that feeling stayed somewhere inside me as I grew older.
As a child, I was extremely curious about the world around me. I loved nature, plants, flowers and trees. I enjoyed gardening and planting things, and I could spend a long time sitting near a tree, swinging from its branches or simply watching the sky and stars. Nature was not something I consciously decided to become interested in; it was simply a part of my life.
I also had a rather unusual habit. Whenever I found a small insect that had died, such as a ladybug or butterfly, I would pick it up and make a little bed for it using flowers. I didn’t think there was anything strange about doing that. I simply felt that even these tiny creatures deserved some care. Looking back today, I find it interesting that this connection with nature started so early in my life. At that time, I had no idea that many years later I would buy agricultural land, grow plants and flowers, and build part of my life around nature.
My curiosity wasn’t limited to nature. Around Class 5, I started thinking about questions that were much bigger than my age. I wondered why people suffer, why some people become helpless, why some people lose their ability to think or function normally, and why life can be so different for different people. I didn’t have the knowledge to answer these questions, but I wanted to understand them.
There was another feeling that had been with me since childhood. I always wanted to help other people. Even as a child, I didn’t feel that life should be only about building a successful life for myself. I had a strong feeling that someday I wanted to do something that could make a positive difference in society. I had no idea what form that would take. I didn’t know whether it would be through science, education, technology, business, nature or something else. I simply felt that whatever I eventually did should be useful to other people.
Interestingly, almost everything else about my future kept changing, but this desire to help people remained.
Around the same period, I became fascinated by the idea of becoming a Judge. I used to watch judges in movies and on television saying, “Order, Order,” and I found the whole idea fascinating. I imagined myself sitting in a courtroom, listening to people and making decisions. At that time, becoming a Judge seemed like one possible future for me.
But I was never someone who had only one interest. I was fascinated by science, space, spirituality, the human brain, creativity and nature. I wanted to understand how things worked, and I loved learning about subjects that were completely different from each other.
Books became a big part of my childhood. I often read books that were beyond what was expected for my age. I read about science, inventions, biographies, spirituality, stories and poetry. Reading allowed me to explore different worlds without leaving my home. I could spend hours learning about scientists or inventions and then move on to spirituality, stories or poetry. I also developed an interest in classical dance and practiced Kathak.
By Class 6, I thought I would become a scientist. Then, around Class 8, I discovered another side of myself. I realized how much I enjoyed creating things. I loved craft projects and spent a lot of time making them carefully. I also enjoyed painting and began to think that perhaps I could become a world-famous artist someday.
At the same time, my curiosity about the human mind continued to grow. I was interested in concentration, meditation and how the mind works. I even tried to meditate, but I couldn’t do it properly. My mind would not stay quiet. Still, I kept thinking that perhaps one day I would understand meditation and learn how to sit quietly with my own thoughts.
Then came Class 9, and my attention became much more focused on mathematics and science. My dream changed again. This time, I wanted to become a space engineer. I was fascinated by space and NASA, and I was deeply inspired by Kalpana Chawla. I started imagining myself working in the space industry one day.
That dream became particularly important to me during my school years. By Class 12, I was preparing for IIT because I believed it could take me toward the kind of scientific and technical career I wanted.
I appeared for the IIT entrance examination twice, but I didn’t clear it. It was a very difficult period for me. I had spent years imagining a particular future, and suddenly I didn’t know what I was supposed to do next. I was heartbroken and felt completely lost for some time.
My father suggested that I study Computer Science. I decided to take his advice, and that decision eventually changed the direction of my life. I completed my Bachelor’s and Master’s in Computer Science and eventually became a Software Engineer.
Interestingly, the idea of becoming a computer engineer wasn’t completely foreign to me. I remember watching the movie Swades when I was in school. There was an image of someone working in front of a large computer screen, and it stayed in my mind. I remember thinking that perhaps one day I could become a really good computer engineer.
Technology eventually became my professional world. Over time, I moved deeper into Big Data, which became an important part of my career. But even while building my corporate career, I was doing much more than simply going to work every day.
While working in the corporate world in India, I started teaching Big Data. I used to conduct Big Data classes inside my company for colleagues who wanted to learn the technology. I also taught Big Data through training institutes outside the company. I genuinely enjoyed teaching because I liked taking complicated technical concepts and explaining them in a simpler way so that someone else could understand them.
At the same time, I was also doing freelance projects alongside my job. So during that period of my life, I was working in my corporate role, teaching Big Data and taking on freelance technology projects.
Each experience taught me something different. My corporate job taught me how technology works inside larger organizations and how teams solve complex problems. Teaching helped me learn how to communicate knowledge clearly. Freelancing gave me experience working more directly with clients, understanding their requirements and taking responsibility for delivering projects.
Looking back, I realize that I was learning how to work independently long before I officially became an entrepreneur.
In fact, my entrepreneurial journey had started much earlier than I used to think.
From college and throughout my corporate career, I kept working on small projects whenever I had an idea. Sometimes they were technology projects. Sometimes they were ideas that I thought could eventually become businesses. Sometimes I was simply curious to see whether an idea would work.
Over the years, I built many small projects. I researched ideas, experimented with them, tried to solve practical problems and thought about how people might use what I was building. But there was one thing I didn’t have enough of at that time: confidence.
I often questioned myself. Would people actually use this? Would someone pay for it? What if nobody liked it? What if I failed? Because of those questions, I never had enough confidence to officially launch many of the ideas I had worked on.
I would build something, learn from it and then move on to another idea. At times, I felt that I wasn’t progressing quickly enough. But today, when I look back, I see those years differently. Those small projects were preparing me for entrepreneurship. They taught me how to take an idea and turn it into something tangible, how to research, build, test, solve problems and think from a user’s perspective.
More importantly, they showed me that I genuinely enjoyed creating something of my own.
I had the technical skills. I had ideas. I knew how to work hard, and I knew how to learn. What I didn’t yet have was the confidence to put something into the world and say, “I built this. I’m going to see what happens.”
That confidence took much longer to develop.
Eventually, my work in Big Data opened up international opportunities. I moved to the UAE and had the opportunity to work with people from different countries and backgrounds. I also travelled to other countries and experienced different cultures and ways of living.
Working internationally changed the way I looked at life. I began to understand that there isn’t one definition of success. People have different priorities, different ideas about family and work, and different ways of looking at happiness and a meaningful life.
Professionally, things were going well. But personally, the desire to build something of my own never disappeared.
My connection with nature also remained strong. For a long time, I had dreamed of having a farm, and eventually I bought agricultural land. For me, it wasn’t simply about owning land. It was something I had imagined since childhood—a place where I could grow plants, spend time with nature and build something connected to the earth.
At the same time, my parents were getting older. They were living alone, and I started thinking much more seriously about my responsibilities toward them. I had been thinking about entrepreneurship for many years, but now the decision became much more personal.
Eventually, I decided that I wanted to leave my corporate job and return to India. My company didn’t initially allow me to resign and instead offered me the option of working from home. So in 2019, I returned to India and continued working while also spending more time thinking about what I wanted to build.
This became an important transition in my life. I was no longer thinking only about my career. I was thinking about the kind of life I wanted to create.
I wanted to build something of my own. I wanted to stay connected to nature. I wanted to continue learning. I wanted to work on ideas that could be useful to people. And I wanted to be closer to my family.
Over the years, I had collected many different interests: technology, Big Data, teaching, entrepreneurship, nature, farming, creativity, science, the human mind and spirituality. For a long time, these interests seemed completely unrelated. Gradually, however, I started realizing that perhaps I didn’t have to choose only one of them.
I could bring different parts of my experience together.
That became the foundation for the projects and businesses I started working on. I began building things around technology, nature, wellness, the human mind and conscious living. Some ideas worked, some didn’t, some changed direction, and many taught me something I needed to learn.
The entrepreneurial journey was still not easy. The confidence that I had lacked earlier didn’t suddenly appear overnight. I had to learn to make decisions without knowing whether they would work. I had to accept that some things would fail and continue moving forward anyway.
Then, in 2025, something happened that connected directly to one of my childhood dreams.
I received an opportunity to work as a Lead Apache Kafka Software Developer on a modernization effort connected with NASA’s Huntsville Operations Support Center. The work was related to systems supporting emerging Human Exploration Moon to Mars missions, including programs such as Lunar Gateway, the Human Landing System, Artemis, the Space Launch System and Orion.
For someone who had dreamed about NASA as a child, this was a very special opportunity. The girl who had once imagined working in the space industry had suddenly received an opportunity connected with that world.
But I couldn’t take it.
Accepting the opportunity would have meant moving to the United States. At that point in my life, I couldn’t leave my aging parents and the projects I had been building in India.
It wasn’t an easy decision. But I chose to stay.
Sometimes I think about how strange life can be. When I was young, I desperately wanted to work in space. Years later, an opportunity connected with that dream appeared, but it came at a time when my priorities and responsibilities were different.
That experience taught me that an opportunity can be excellent and still not be the right choice for your life at that particular moment.
There was another part of my childhood that eventually came back into my life: meditation.
I had tried to meditate when I was young, but I couldn’t. My mind was too active, and I didn’t know how to sit quietly with it. But I never completely lost my interest in understanding the mind.
Over the years, I continued learning about the brain, consciousness, meditation and human behaviour. Eventually, in 2025, something changed. I was able to meditate continuously for around one to two hours, and sometimes longer when I had the time.
The child who once couldn’t sit quietly had finally learned how to stay with her own mind.
That experience made me even more curious about how our minds work. It also made me think more deeply about the relationship between our thoughts, beliefs, habits and actions.
Even today, I continue to read regularly. Depending on what I am working on and what I am curious about, I usually read one to three books a month. The subjects are still very diverse: science, the brain, nature, philosophy, spirituality, business and personal growth.
In many ways, I don’t think my curiosity has changed much since childhood. I still want to understand things. I still ask questions. I still like learning about subjects that seem completely different from one another. And I still enjoy sharing what I learn with other people.
One belief that has developed through my own experiences is that our repeated thoughts matter. I don’t believe that simply thinking about something magically makes it happen. But I do believe that what we repeatedly think about influences what we notice, what we learn, the choices we make and the habits we develop. Over time, those choices and actions can change the direction of our lives.
A thought by itself may not change your life, but a thought that you repeatedly reinforce can influence your behaviour. Behaviour repeated over years can create a very different life.
When I look back at my own journey, I can see how some of the things I imagined as a child eventually appeared in my life in completely unexpected forms. Not always exactly as I imagined them, but sometimes in ways I couldn’t have predicted.
I also don’t consider my journey finished.
There are still many things I want to build. There are ideas I want to explore, things I want to learn, places I want to see and problems I want to solve. There are also dreams I haven’t achieved yet.
Sometimes people look at someone’s life and assume that the person has already figured everything out. I don’t feel that way about myself. I am still experimenting, still learning, still making mistakes and still building.
I am also still trying to understand what that feeling from childhood meant—the feeling that I was here for something.
If I look at my life from the outside, it might seem as though I changed direction many times. I wanted to become a Judge, then a scientist, then an artist, and then a space engineer. I prepared for IIT and didn’t clear it. I studied Computer Science instead. I became a Software Engineer, moved into Big Data, taught Big Data, did freelance projects and built many small projects of my own. I worked internationally, moved back to India, bought agricultural land and eventually started building businesses.
I even received an opportunity connected with NASA and chose not to take it.
And somewhere along the way, I finally learned how to meditate—something I had been trying to understand since childhood.
For a long time, I thought these were all separate chapters. Now I see a connection between them.
The child who wanted to understand why people suffer is still interested in the human mind. The child who cared for tiny insects is still connected to nature. The child who loved science is still learning. The child who dreamed about space is still fascinated by what we don’t yet understand. The child who loved painting and creativity is still creating. The child who wanted to help people is still looking for ways to make a positive difference. And the child who couldn’t meditate is finally able to sit quietly with her own thoughts.
Maybe I didn’t have to become only one of those things. Maybe they were all simply different parts of the same person.
Today, I am trying to bring these different parts of my life together. My technology background taught me how to solve complex problems. Teaching taught me the value of sharing knowledge. Freelancing taught me how to work independently and understand real client problems. Entrepreneurship is teaching me how to turn ideas into something real. Nature continues to keep me grounded, while my interest in the human mind keeps pushing me to learn.
My childhood desire to help others also continues to influence the kind of things I want to create.
This is one of the reasons BloomyBliss became more than simply a business for me. It is connected to my long-standing relationship with nature and my interest in helping people live a more conscious and nature-connected life. It is one part of a much larger journey.
I don’t want to write this story as if everything worked out perfectly.
It didn’t.
I didn’t become the space engineer I once imagined. I didn’t clear IIT. Many of the projects I built were never officially launched. There were years when I lacked confidence. There were opportunities I couldn’t take. There were ideas that didn’t work, and there were decisions that took me years to make.
But I don’t think those experiences were wasted.
They became part of my education.
Some lessons came from success. Others came from failure. Some came from books, some from people, some from technology, some from nature and some simply from living through difficult decisions.
Today, I don’t know exactly where this journey will take me. But I know that I want to continue learning, building and helping where I can. I want to create things that are useful. I want to stay connected with nature. I want to understand the human mind more deeply. I want to keep exploring science and technology. And I want to continue growing without losing the curiosity that has been with me since childhood.
When I think about the little girl who once felt that she was here for something, I still don’t know exactly what that “something” is.
Maybe I will understand it someday.
For now, I am continuing to explore.
This isn’t the story of someone who has reached the destination. It is simply the story of a curious child who grew up, changed direction many times, made mistakes, learned, built things, lost confidence, found it again, and is still trying to understand what she is capable of creating.
And perhaps the most interesting part of the story is that it isn’t over yet.